There are two lasting bequests we can hope to give our children. One of these is roots, the other, wings.

- Hodding Carter

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Stop moving my cheese!

Remember that book, Who Moved My Cheese?

I was required to read it when it was all the corporate rage.

The basic premise (if you haven't read it) is that "change" (or, "cheese," in this scenario) is going to happen ("move") whether we like it or not. Those of us who embrace the changes and chase after our cheese will succeed. Those of us who don't will end up lost in the maze, ultimately missing out on future opportunities.

Since I'm still employed by the company that required me to read this book, I will refrain on commenting further on why I think they really wanted us to read it, but I will say this:

At the time, I bought in to the idea of chasing after my cheese and felt like I was pretty good at doing so with a happy and positive attitude, but those days are long gone. Those were the days before I had kids -- when I could do and keep up with it all.

At this particular time in my life, my cheese is moving around like crazy. Things are changing so rapidly that I can barely keep up with what day it is. And the hardest part of all of it -- is that the old me could've handled it.

I was organized. I could keep up with a list. I could think and speak in complete sentences.

I don't know where the old me has gone, but if she's lucky, she's off on a beach somewhere enjoying some quiet time!

Don't get me wrong -- I absolutely love my life as a mother, but I'm having a hard time juggling it all. I've seriously got to pull it together and muddle through these changes the best I know how.

But it's so HARD!

Thankfully, I have the best family a girl could ask for. I have the kind of family who drives 2,700 miles to clean my house, pack boxes, watch my kids, hug me when I lose it, etc. I have no idea how I'd survive without them right now because truth be told, I'm a little "off" these days.

I'm hoping that at some point soon, the old me will meet up with the new me and come up with a new and improved me. That's the kind of change I could deal with.


Sunday, June 20, 2010

For my dad

Happy Father's Day, Dad. I love you and I appreciate everything you've done for me. Including driving all the way out here (with Mom) to help us move this week! I owe you so much.


Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I'm not ready

It seems like just yesterday I was pregnant with twins.

It seems like just yesterday I was juggling two feedings at one time.

It seems like just yesterday that my babies started walking.

But it wasn't just yesterday that these things happened.

Where has the time gone?

I'm not ready.

I'm not ready to send them to Kindergarten.

I'm not ready to wave goodbye as they ride on the school bus for the first time.

I'm not ready to let them grow up.

And yet, I guess I have to be.

Friday is pre-school graduation. I'm barely ready for it. Once it's over, I have approximately two months to get myself ready for the next big step. And at the rate I'm going, it's never going to happen.

I want my babies back.

Sigh -- I know that's never going to happen, but I can still dream and relish the moments that went by way too quickly.

As you can see from the picture, my girls are growing up. And way, way too fast in my opinion. If only I could control time...

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The Eclipse soundtrack is here!

I just got mine today and I love it. I am officially ready for the movie. Are you?

Monday, June 7, 2010

Eclipse Trailer #3

I don't think this trailer is as good as the last two, but I'm still excited about the premiere, which will be here in about three weeks!


Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The latest photo shoot

If it seems like I've posted a lot of pictures of the girls this year on Facebook or here on the blog, it's because I have.

Miss Chasity, the girl's pre-school teacher also has her own photography business called Sugar & Spice Snapshots. So, we get lots and lots of photos taken at school, as well as some fun extras when we do a photo shoot with her. As you can see, she does great work. I especially like the quote she picked for this picture: "Our roots say we're sisters; our hearts say we're friends."